The picture is of Giora (my wonderful boyfriend) a while ago lol I just found it! It was one of the first pictures he sent me when we were getting to know each other.... I love it. Such a silly sexy Jewish cowboy.

It's amazing how much I've seemed to grow in three odd, unpredictable but overall okay years...

I can't believe I'm applying for colleges like basically now. I never thought this time would finally arrive, I've been waiting for this since I declared I wanted my independence at 8 years of age after I failed to provide appropiate ID for renting a movie in Guatemala, as funny as that may sound.

I remember that night I cried so hard because I HATED being a child, I hated it all along, not being able to have control over what I ate, when I went to sleep, what I did overall. I had to ask permission for everything I would do and if I did something wrong then discipline came.

I am exactly 8 months away from being 18 years old... how do I feel? I feel AMAZING! I would NEVER go back for even one second to being a child. So many people say they would give anything to be a kid again, to feel so carefree without responsibilities and 'serious' problems (thought I consider breaking my grandma's medicine which cost like 200 Quetzales quite a serious problem at the time :P).

My mom of course is not very okay with my newfound well so near independence, she wants me to stay home and is VERY against me moving out for college, which is what I am doing without a doubt. The nearest college to them that I'm applying is well a good four hours away which screams YEAAHHHH!! CAN'T GET ME NOW!

For my 18th birthday I'm going to the tattoo place and getting my feminist symbol on my left shoulder, it shall be very very cool.

Today I talked to Giora in the morning for about an hour and a half. What did we talk about? I don't even remember, college, problems around the world, things we're doing next week, he's coming home (in Jerusalem not here home ): ) next week on Thursday so we'll be able to talk a bit I suppose since he usually spends time with his family but he promised to talk more than usual when he's at home. I really shouldn't be complaining though because we usually talk VERY much when we're both available, he spends every second on the phone with me whenever he cans.

 His little brother Guy is turning 12 in September...it seems like a day ago that he was turning 11 and Giora was complaining about how bratty he was for complaining about several gifts he had gotten lol. I wonder if he's going to have a Bar Mitzvah next year, I better get the money ready ;)

Apart from everything I'm glad that I'm finally growing up to be able to help others, like I've always wanted to. I remember once I was at the park, I was maybe 6 or 7 years old and I was just picking trash with my hands and putting it in the trash can. Suddenly my mom came and started yelling at me for being 'shuka' which is a slang Guatemalan word for nasty lol she meant it as I was getting my hands dirty. Remembering that even back then I had an urge to do something, but since I was so young and my parents so naive about everything, nobody in Guatemala cares about the environment, well I shouldn't say ANYBODY because I did, they never really let me do what I wanted, pick up trash or help ppl paint grafitti or stuff like that that I yearned to do so bad.

It's funny how people can be so different. While most of the girls I grew up with in my semi small town in Guatemala (actually it's like 30,000 people but it seemed like it was 100 since they're such loud mouths) are stuck in the same cycle everyone else seems to be in, which is being with boys and destroying their lives by doing nothing and being super Catholic, I seem to come from Mars! When I went back to visit every 2 years after leaving they seemed to think I was crazier every time I came back. The first time I came back vegetarian, the second one vegan, the next one I came back Atheist, Vegan, and feminist...I think it was too much for them but they could tell since I was younger that I was somehow not even close to what they were or ever wanted to be.

It's ok, I am myself, I can't say I have always been since at one time in middle school I wanted to be like everyone else and started behaving like a boy crazy Boricua (Puerto Rican for all you that don't know what  it means) girl O_o, but luckily I realized that I was going nowhere and that I could never be like everyone else I knew.

Last year I was the Environmental Club's Vice-President and this year I'm well yes, the President. I remember when I first joined the club in ninth grade I said, one day I will be the president and no one can stop me, well I did it...

I'm also the secretary for Argo Marine Science Club and the ICC rep/historian for Girl's League. I'm quite happy with my achievements :)

This is my fourth year in HS band and third instrument so I'm good with that too. Crap, I forgot I have to practice for this semester's marching season. Starting tomorrow I will practice an hour every day! I HAVE to learn my music by three weeks or else I'll get yelled at by my band teacher..don't want that noo....

AHHH! AHHH!! ...AHHH!! so many things to do yet I have to stay under control or else I will not get anything done, and if I do it will end up half assed.

I'm talking to Bunny (that's Giora's nickname lol) in about an hour so yay. Now it seems that my day revolves around when I get to talk to him. Sigh...love...it hurts so bad sometimes, hell! most of the time, but yet it's so addicting and amazing when it's at its best.

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Today I woke up at 7am like I always do...but decided to go back to sleep, nothing to wake up for. I'm in vacations. I woke up again around 9:50am and decided to actually get out of bed since I could talk to Giora since last night I didn't get to because his officer didn't wake up and I got really tired of staying up. Turns out he couldn't go anyway because he doesn't know his schedule, and other crappy stuff I don't even remember, but we talked for 15 minutes on his cell phone which is about 50 minutes on the payphone (14 cents a minute to Israeli cell phones and 2 cents a minute to landlines) and it was ok since I decided that we didn't talk at all yesterday or today.

After that I was like eh, and started doing random stuff on the computer, listening to music, and reading and anotating my summer assignments. I haven't practiced my baritone today yet so I still have to do that.

I also talked with my mom about several things and I got really upset because she's so religious and disrespectful towards anything or anybody that doesn't follow the Catholic belief system.

I wish I could have a job atm but there is absolutely no work! I'm not the only one going through this, everyone I know is, but it's most likely because of the recession and hopefully jobs will open up by Sept. when everyone goes back to school. I want to work and study while my senior year.

This year I'll have only 6 (0-5) periods instead of the usually 0-6 (which is 7 periods) so I'll get out an hour earlier. I wanted to have 0-4 so I could get out before lunch but it turned out that I couldn't make up my lost chemistry semester during the summer so I will have to make it up next year >_>

I'm taking these classes

Band
AP English Literature
AP Civcs*
AP Economics* (*they're both one class but count as two AP classes...if it's understandable)
AP Environmental Science
Physical Science (this makes up for the chemistry, I actually had a dream last night that I went into the class and it was full of freshman and idiot sophomores since it's for most of the ppl in regular classes that don't want to take biology or chemistry...bah! turned out I had to take it anyway...so I guess I'm an idiot -_-)
Trigonometry


I guess my lowly stupid classes like trig, and phys science are made up by my four AP classes...I REALLY wanted to have just five classes though...I'm really thinking of telling my counselor of taking away AP ENVI since I don't need that and she signed me up before I even knew about it because apparently I'm a flaming hippy...

I've been drinking quite a bit of water now that I have my SIGG water bottle, it's bright pink and quite cool I should say. I'm pretty glad about it since before the most I drank in one day was maybe one bottle of water and one glass of chocolate almond milk...but now I'm drinking about 5-7 glasses of water thank you to the magic SIGG bottle from whole foods..yes yes I know most vegans hate whole foods for being sell outs and for selling meat AND at the same time catering to us vegans but still, where else am I supposed to go shopping in this stupid little city? it's either Trader Joe's or my local Ralph's and they don't have even close to the variety that whole foods has to choose from.


Plus I like my vegan Follow Your Heart cheddar cheese with nachos, (I don't like the nacho cheese because it's spicy and I do not...repeat, do not eat spicy foods...at all)

I want to try Indian someday though even if it may be spicy. I've eaten Mexican food once, it was for my 8th grade graduation and I didn't like it...I do like half lb. bean burritos with no cheese and red sauce from Del Taco though, and their fries.

Life...so horrible...the best we can do is not complain though. Even so, I always wonder why my parents had me. It was probably the most selfish thing they could have possibly done, why would you bring another human to this earth knowing that not only is there already enough but this is a horrible world full of sorrow and suffering, if not for you than for others and for me that is enough to be unable to be happy, I can't be like everyone else that ignores what's going on and just live your life without wanting to know what others are going through because it will only make you sad and you aren't even willing to help in any way. I wish so bad they would have just not had me, would it have been such a horrible choice? I think not. I know they tried their hardest to give me everything that I wanted to be happy but in reality I don't think I can ever be happy (no one can ever be happy but I'm talking in a kind of way like most people here are, just thinking about themselves and enjoying their lives by spending all their money on themselves and just being 'happy' by ignoring suffering) ever. I dislike my parents so bad, why couldn't they just adopt, now I'm stuck studying and doing everything I can just to insure that I do at least semi well in a life that I never choose to have in the first place and was just given, *here, you're alive now and we'll take care of you for the first few years but for the rest you're on your own*....no...I don't think I can ever do that.

Life is one horrible thing.

You know what would really suck? if reincarnation really existed...man I would just kill myself as soon as I'm born until somehow I reach nirvana by doing things backwards LOL...gahh such nonesense I'm talking...but it's ok, it's my blog and I can say anything I want. I actually have a diary online which I've had since I was 12 and I've kept it up all these 5 years, pretty cool...but I can't post things in my blog like I do in my diary, it would be too depressing for everyone else since I have a really bad outlook on life and humanity in general.

I'm actually listening to this song called Yalli by Nourhanne, it's in Arabic so all I can understand is la = no, salaam = hi, ma'asalaama = bye and um ali kan which means what happened. I learned ali kan by talking to a fellow Egyptian that I met through a website called livemocha.com where you can learn other languages by talking to others, since I'm trying to learn Hebrew for my beloved boyfriend, but I only know random words and like two sentences lol...

I really like the group HaBanot Nechama which means the girls Nechama in Hebrew. They're REALLY good and I love the song So Far (Lihyot) and Lies. Here's their myspace website HaBanot Nechama.

I was just thinking about feminism and porn. I really don't know what to think about it since I guess both parties of feminists have reasonable arguments towards their points of view....I guess I'm okay with its production if the women really want it since a lot of women are really into doing crap in front of cameras but I do understand that it is very demoralizing and the porn viewers are made up by like 98% males...and maybe 40% of those are pedos that like really young women and males, like 18 year olds that look like they're 8 and if not then just find the real pedo crap online...I just saw this report on CNN about a current child porn bust in Australia, I guess somehow they figured that one video was put up (child porn of course by some pedo) and it received 12 MILLION hits in about an hour around the world....

That is just plain disgusting. I say kill all pedophiles, but yes yes peace and all that, but still, I consider peace as in non violence, you can kill the pedophiles in a non violent way ;P. Some may argue that they're sick and it's not their fault that they have a 'mental illness', though I say that something like that can never be taken away and you can never stop being a pedo for good, I guess you have to have pedo tendencies since you start becoming a young adult and still like younger girls even if you keep growing and the girls you like stay at the age group you were 8 years ago, or 40 for that matter....my point is that something like sexual abuse, pedophile or not, it still should be punishable by death. I am a great defender of the death penalty, specially for rape, I don't care much for homicide since I consider death like a sweet relief from this horrible life, and yes you may argue ok then if it's a sweet relief than why relief the pedos and rapists and molesters? well it's more like relief the earth from their pedophilia and sex frenzy, I prefer to prevent more kids and women and ...I guess sometimes men from their abuse than to ever have the chance of letting them go free. Sexual abuse to me is worse than death, worse than anything in this world and doesn't deserve any kind of forgiveness, ever. Then again I'm not exactly a forgiver, have never been and due to some not very nice circumstances have been sweetly forced into forgiving certain things, which I can say I never will but I can forget things...at least not think about them.


I have a lot to work on myself. Not only my stupid way of being so unforgiving and not letting go of things that happened years ago that are only hurting me now but I'm too unwilling to let go of pride but of other things like once I make up my mind about a certain opinion it is almost impossible for me to change my mind. For example I'm pro-choice, pro-abortion, and I already made my mind up about it about four years ago...there's no way in hell I'm ever changing it, neither my veganism, I guess those are good things but I'm also thinking about other things, like the bad close minded ones....that I'm not willing to discuss in the blog. The worst part is that I'm unwilling to change, I know it's bad and I wish I even had the feeling of feeling it's PERSONALLY bad but I just don't, then again I'm only 17 and I have a horrible lifetime ahead of me to work on everything....

In five years I'm out of undergrad school and five years ago I was 12, oh how I remember when I was 12, it seems like yesterday except that that one day it feels like 100 years at the same time...I just always wanted to grow up, so since time flies then I feel like five years will be quite fast and when I'm out of undergrad I'll be like holy crap...time for what? I'm thinking of doing peace corps after undergrad and then going to grad but iono, life will dictate, who knows if I've already died by then...call the ouija board.

Here's a random picture ...just because I'm random:

I really like the vegan witch's art work. I plan to someday pay her to draw me and my boyfriend, but for now this is the closest to what I'll get since I'm slightly moneyless like everyone else always seems to be..their whole lives....

I probably won't get to talk to Giora tonight either so I'll go to sleep early, I don't like staying up later than 9pm because I start thinking of all the horrible stuff in this world and get all depressed and mad.

I have senior pictures next week, man, I just got bangs and look like I'm 12...freaking A! I just completely ruined my senior pix lol...haha...great... 0_o

other than that my feet are really pale...and I broke my ten min. of daily sun by going to San Jose with the BFF so I guess I must get back on track but today I just did not feel like going out to the sun, better yet I totally forgot.

Zohar Fresco is a really good percussionist as well.

He's a Turkish Israeli apparently, that's what it says on his website. I love cultures and traditions so I'm always investigating the origins of pplz, I love knowing that diversity is quite present and I guess geography and all of these things help me unfocus of the pessimism I always seem to have towards being alive.

Other than that I'm still remembering the Chinese massage I got in San Jose with Dawn and  her great aunt..they touched my butt! I'm still thankful I pleaded for a woman because I thought it was going to be only feet and even then I was freaking out (I'm quite not sexist but just...reserved and conservative when it come to other guys touching me) and then I find out it's basically a WHOLE body massage, I'm saying whole ppl, like thighs and butt and all that good stuff. Anyway, it was a good massage but I'm still lucky I didn't get the guy...

So I already decided on my third tattoo and it will be Om Mani Padme Hum. I think that it will be good, specially for me since I'm such a bundle of unpeacefulness inside of myself, I seem to be quite patient and good compared to others around me though which is something that I've achieved over the years after taking seriously the quote of if you see something wrong in others fix it in yourself instead of criticizing. That's a good thing I have, I always take good quotes to heart and follow what they say.


This is something about Om Mani Padme Hum.

Well so my first and second will be my feminist symbol on my left shoulder and my lower back VEGAN tattoo...I still have to get that one designed though and I plan to get the VEGAN one in Israel with Giora....

Random picture of Giora and me :)




The title explains the picture. We look dorky in like 90% of all the pictures though so it's reasonable...I wonder what he's doing right now...oh wait it's 4:15am in Israel so he's sleeping or guarding...

Done with my random talking for today....I was going to watch the movie Bonjour Monsieur Shlomi but it was scratched so I have to go back to Blockbuster and tell them to give me a good one...Now I guess I must continue with my summer asses (short for assignments lol) which are

The Natural by Bernard Malamud

Wuthering Heights by Emily Bronte

Sir Gawain and the Green Knights

...I have to do annotations for all three of them, and reading yes...and doing a special card report for two of the books.

I'm not complaining at all though, I know more work is coming ahead in life and high school is just a daycare like my band teacher puts it...oh Mr. Nowak, thank you for all the kind encouragements... lol
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I really like the idea of this blog thing. I guess I've always liked putting my thoughts on writing unlike many of the people I know. They're just not willing to do it. Maybe because they think it's stupid to put down how you feel and it's only for sissy bloggers or they just don't feel like it. Either way I really don't give a crap, but I am writing about it so I somehow must in a way...

Anyway, today I woke up around 8:30am to check if Giora had sent me any text messages while I was sleeping since it's day in Israel and I hadn't so I guessed he was in his normal schedule again. I decided to actually do something today, which was my errands, and get out of the house.

First I went to the post office. I brought my five postcard and the package I put together for Giora, along with the San Francisco Souveneir I bought for him and the letters I wrote, mailed towards his house, not his base. The postcards left for Israel, Guatemala (I sent them to a few cousins) and Egypt. Egypt because of Mohamed the boy I met through livemocha.com like I mentioned before.

I went to the post office and waited in line for about ten minutes, mind you the lines in post offices feel like a year when you're in them, and when I finally got up front I had to fill up a customs paper for the package to Israel and the kind lady sent me all the way back to the beginning of the line.

Well by then the line had grown twice its size and I filled it out quietly and just went through the line again.

After I was done with everything I noticed that my patience has grown a lot since I last made it a goal to be more patient, which was a few years ago. I noticed I didn't complain even once in my mind while going back to the line and didn't think bad of the lady like I would have beforehand. Oh beforehand I would have eaten her alive in my mind and maybe just left to the car and probably come back after I was done with everything else.

Since I still haven't gotten my permit my mom has to drive me around and I always have to listen to her talk. Really annoying but I take it...oh how I've taken it for these 17 years of my life. I'm leaving in a year to college so I'm pretty happy.

The day I leave I think I'm going to get some kind of nervous disorder due to the happiness and disbelief that I ACTUALLY got away from my parents....I think I'll be in denial that what will be happening is actually true and not a simple dream I've been dreaming about my whole life. Oh geez I can't wait...

So I just watched a movie called Time of Favor. It's a foreign film, Israeli. It won six Israeli academy awards including best picture and I thought it was pretty good. It was made in the year 2000. I returned the other movies to Blockbuster and Shlomi was broken so I couldn't see it and so I had to pick out the Time of Favor one. I also want to see Turltles can Fly, looks pretty good. I want more documentaries to watch but I already saw like all of the ones in freedocumentaries.org and pretty much all the other websites so the ones that are left have to be bought and I'm in no kind of solidarity with money atm.

Tomorrow I'm going to take my laptop to circuit city to see if they find anything wrong with it. I seem to find it hard to type with certain letters so if there's some mispellings it's probably because of that. Also it seems to shut off alone and it's not a virus and I'm tired of calling the 1 800 number for the Toshiba customer service.

So I also went to buy a $20 skype card for credit to call Giora whenever he's at his base. I really shouldn't be spending so much money on calling him though specially when I barely have any. Last month I spent around 110 dollars just on calls.

I also am babysitting tomorrow again so that should be good. I babysat Friday too I think and I got a good 20 buckos for it, the girls are angels though so I shouldn't even be getting payed, I consider it kinda like community service.

I babysit two little girls. One is five and the other one is two. They are really really good and I really don't have to try at all when I'm babysitting them. I usually just watch Dora the Explorer with them or the other Nick Jr. and Noggin stuff. It's actually pretty funny so it's not like I'm getting bored by any means. I'm never bored.

Ok so I bought these 'seaweed rice crackers' from Whole Foods and man they do not taste like I thought they would taste....well maybe they taste like how I was afraid they would. Nobody will eat them so I guess I'll have to feed them to the birds since Snowbell won't eat them either :P

I walked around in my yoga pants all day. I seem to have fallen in love with them since the moment they were given to me by the bald FedEx dude with the glasses that has delivered to my house since I was like 12. He's probably like 30 now though...anyway, I stretched for a while today and actually did some yoga. I stretch every day though since I've always been really flexible and don't intend on losing it ever....though I doubt anyone would like to see a grandma stretching... O_o

Other than that...I watched Yes Dear today and I almost got another asthma attack so I controlled my laughing and just kinda breathed in hard. SO annoying to get a freakin asthma attack every time you laugh like a psychopath. Then I watched some King of Queens and laughed some more. After that I practiced my baritone for a little while but I really don't like the crappy one I have right now and really want my euphonium back, or the new marching baritone Nowak promised me like two weeks ago. I have band practice on Thursday.

Talking about later this week, Giora is coming home on Friday and he's going to Tel Aviv with his sister (?) to a vegan restaurant and he told me he'd take pix for me.

Oh, I also talked with his grandma in Jerusalem through skype and she told me she's coming to visit her brother in California in a few months, and she's visited one of the colleges I'm applying to (UC DAVIS) so she told me what she thinks about the campus. Pretty nice talking to her, I'll hopefully be meeting her next year.

Anyway I'm one of my goals is to get a job in SEPTEMBER, NO MATTER WHAT! I have to get money, like serious dollars soon. I know I have lots of responsabilities with my clubs, marching band, and my classes but I have to get money or else how the hell will I get to Israel.

Here's a random picture of Dawn and I in the Buddhist temple in San Jose:


The sun was in my face.

Here's another picture...I look so serious and stern, just the way I like it.


Goodness I look so eager in that picture. I will post one that I don't look so stupid in just to make up for the stupid ones:


and another one with her little sister Doan....she's the devil :P

See...I don't ALWAYS look so stupid in pictures.

Ok so I was just on MY GAIA page and I was reading the horoscope. I don't believe in horoscopes and in AP Psychology they completely taught me why I was right in not believing in them in the first place, but todays just seem to hit me straight in the target of my thinking:

You are not so good at remembering the details of what went wrong, but that doesn't prevent you from getting discouraged about a current relationship. Even if it's not apparent, some of your present disappointment could be tied to part of your personal history that you would rather forget. Nevertheless, filling in the gaps in your story can free you from repeating an ineffective pattern again and again.

Freaking A, it's like everyone knows what I'm thinking sometimes, I maybe suck at hiding my feelings or I secretly talk to people while I sleep.

Anyway, it's not that I'm getting 'discouraged' from my present relationship with G but I really don't know what's going on with me. Eh, it's probably just a phase that I always go through but I hope I get over it fast...it's really affecting me in the fact that I'm not feeling my emotions as hard as I used to, don't get me wrong I love Giora very much but just for example getting upset is not bad at all anymore, in fact when I feel like I should I instead get a feeling of nothingness and just plain don't care and ignore it. Or when I should feel excited for something like calling him I just don't feel as excited anymore, maybe because of so many times I thought I would get to but never did so I taught myself to not get excited anymore or hope for anything too much since at the end I might just not end up getting it after all.


Other than that I have started biting my nails for some reason. Last time I remember I bit my nails was when I was like 13...I don't know why this is happening but I've destroyed my left hand, it almost bled.

Giora has a bad nail biting habit though.


I also have destroyed my two front teeth since of so much biting random stuff just over and over like a piece of hair or my nail, I have filed down certain parts of my teeth so bad that I don't know what to think...well, at least up close. My smile on recent pictures *about like two days ago* looks really nice, like the one with Dawn in San Francisco.

Crap, I was supposed to read at least 20 pages of my summer assignments today but I never did, geez louis I just can't seem to get around to finishing them and I need to get over with the basics of passing my AP English class before even trying to apply to such a great school like Bryn Mawr.


My butt hurts, I should go to bed.

Nighters.

I found the picture up top on some page on a vegan kind of myspace online. I do not remember the artist but of course I should say it is NOT mine and it is from some very talented VEGAN artist....if it wasn't very noticeable :P


Ok so today I woke up around 10am, every day I seem to be waking up later and later. I woke up with my mom on the phone with this lady and she wanted me to translate something so I did...

After that I got out of bed and started doing random crap like listing what I would do that day and cleaning the kitchen since I don't like it to be dirty. After that I went online and read a lot of really funny stuff that was posted on this certain forum that Giora used to go to with his friend and me too but eventually I decided not to because they were mean to me AND I wasted a lot of time there.

So eventually I'm just online and like the past few days I wasn't really expecting to talk to Giora and I actually got a message from him on ICQ from his cell phone if I wanted to talk for a few min since it's so expensive so I said yeah, but I was hesitant since I can't really afford to keep calling him, I don't know why I just keep talking to him when the certain time I was supposed to is up, I need to work on my detachment.

Anyway we were talking about my day and his day and I guess his veganism was rejected in the army and he has to try again so they'll pay for his meals and all that crap. Then the earthquake happens...

I was talking to him and suddenly I felt like everything was moving and I look to the entertainment center and the stuff is just moving like freaking hell and I FREAK OUT, I mean I never knew I would panic so bad in times of stress like these, I always thought I'd be the one telling everyone to be calm. Geez I disappointed myself today. So suddenly I start screaming 'THERE'S AN EARTHQUAKE AHH EARTHQUAKE' and he's on the phone like wth, I didn't even hear what he said since I was completely like AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH and when it stopped the call dropped and I was shaking soo bad and my mom was really freaked out cuz she went through the badass earthquake of the 70's in Guatemala that killed 2000 people in her town and so she was super freaked out compared to me. I was sweating so bad and shaking and ADRENALINE ADRENALINE! so I call Giora back and tell him everything's fine but he was just so freakin passive about everything it was annoying, he's like yeah it's just an earthquake there's no need to freak out blah blah, WHAT IF IT WAS REALLY BAD?! grrr he made me so angry, but I was too agitated to care about him, and still kinda am so I don't really give a crap.

Other than that I was just annoyed cuz my internet went out for like 8 hours and that's my source of life so I actually had to read my homework lol and do things that I had to....


I found Tom's address! so I'm sending his postcard soon too. Tom is Giora's friend and he lives a few minutes away from him in Israel. We became kinda close after he introduced us because Tom usually stays up really late and iono really why the hell I talk to him but I do anyway so that's that.

I babysat and skipped my senior pictures, I look like a moron anyway with my new bangs so whatever. I needed new shampoo and face wash so I ordered that with my neighbor whom I babysit for instead of the cash and she's the district manager of Arbonne. The stuff is Arbonne btw, certified vegan and very good...that's what I use for pretty much everything.

I really REALLY wanted to watch the show PREGNANCY on the discovery science channel since she has cable buuut apparently it was too bloody for a five year old, geez she came out that way anyway :P lol but we ended up watching Family Matters and Spongebob and it was good since there was an accordion scene and since I play the accordion and did so for three years in my childhood, I really liked the episode.


I'm thirsty...

Ok, so one of my best friends, Sarah, just came home from a three week vacation from Egypt, Dubai and NYC. I can't wait to talk to her about it! we're going to go out on Thursday so she can tell me all the details about her trip. I collect keychains so she brought me those as well. On Thursday I have band practice for two hours or so so I'll be meeting her afterwards.

So I already received in the mail when band camp is going to beeeeeeee...it's two weeks from August 18 to the 29th and it's going to be ruff. Yes...very....I have to run laps if I do something wrong or do push-ups for some other crap and my noodle arms do not like it.

I also have the meeting dates for AP English, AP Econ and I think that's it O_O but I also have to finish the books before then, I already finished FREAKONOMICS so that's good, it was a really good read and couldn't stop turning pages so that was pretty easy...I just hope I don't freak out on the day of the test but that's why good ol' sparky notes are available. Oh what did our mothers and grandmothers do without the oh so blessed internet? I would've probably died...then again I wouldn't have known, it's like in the future some other pplz kids saying what did they ever do without.......I can't think of anything <_<

SoOoOoOo I don't think I have anything to write about tonight really, I've been so like ehhh today and I don't know.............................................don't exactly feel like ranting...


Random picture:


Daily picture of Giora:


Drinking mango boba at the Tet Festival in Little Saigon, CA. I took the pic btw. :)
toodles!

So right now I'm just sitting down in front of the tv watching Scrubs. It's the episode where JD really wants to sleep with Molly, who's what's her name's best friend and yeahhh anyway, Scrubs is not my favorite show anymore, it's Everybody Loves Raymond...so I guess Scrubs is #2.

Today I woke up exactly at 9:30AM and went online (that's the first thing I always do) checked my messages, put everything that I needed to do for the day and went to take a shower. I'm glad I'm getting new shampoo soon cuz I'm running out pretty fast.

Then...I wanted to deliver Tom's postcard but I don't have the courage to walk alone down the street because I have a serious issue where I can't go outside alone. It has to do with not liking to be seen, being severly anti-social with people I don't know, and being scared of some guy doing things to me like I hear on television and everywhere I turn. So my mom wouldn't give me the ride to go there since it's LITERALLY in front of my condo complex and she wanted me to walk, BUT I REFUSE! tomorrow I'm going to band practice anyway so I'll drop it off then. I LOVE sending letters and postcards, unlike Giora when he met me.

Then I started to finish off the sparknotes for THE NATURAL by Malamud and then FINISHED! so now I just have to read the book... bahh. Now I'm halfway through the Sir Gawain's poem and it turns out that it's actually more interesting than the title makes it seem.

Anyway, this is one of my favorite scenes from Scrubs:




I love it! I even left a comment on the vid. yeahh...

Other than that here's another funny scene from it depicting 'strong women'




Yeah...I love it as well

SoOoOo today I watched La Petite Jerusalem again and I actually got to see the WHOLE movie today since my mom was home last time and I had to skip all the nudity and kissing, which was like half of the movie -_- ...gosh, stupid practicing Catholics make you go insane. At least that one episode in Family Guy with his Catholic dad made me feel like I wasn't alone in the world xD it was amazing! I felt like...I'm not the only one going through a horrible pathetic childhood and teenagehood due to idiot Catholic parents and family as a whole...sigh, such relief :P

I can't believe it's ONLY Wednesday, according to my birth control... the New Year's day of 2020 I will be SO happy I finally am so far away from being a minor that I'll SCREAM!!!!!!!!!!! and kiss anyone that's near me...even if it's my cat (I'm allergic to Snowbell..now I don't know if I'm allergic only to Snowbell's bitchiness or all cats).


So today I had some issues with my cousin in Guatemala. She's actually my niece...daughter of my cousin. Since my mother chose to marry at such an old age, all my cousins are already married, with kids and even grandkids, so the generation I hang out the most and talk to is actually the one younger than me. Anyway, we solved it because we believe that women shouldn't fight...over any kind of reason. I mean unless the woman is some unfeminist weirdo that somehow is putting down other women like those right-winged anti-choice Schlafly like ones...so I guess I do think women should fight over some conditions bahh I hate contradictions.

So today I actually got quite a bit done. I did take a two hour nap like around 3PM and woke up to watch Everybody Loves Raymond and Malcom in the Middle. I was so afraid of getting another Asthma attack though that I didn't laugh so hard this time.

Okay so I'm gonna go do somethings and then go to bed, I'm trying to go to bed early and wake up late, maybe time won't feel so slow this way until 2020.

Night night

Picture of Giora and moi [check out the badass Liz Lovely Vegan Cookie t-shirt yeahh ;)]:


P.S. Right now I was just talking to Dawn about the earthquake yesterday and this was our funny convo.

dawny818 says (9:11 PM):
well did you know they said that a big one will be in nov
الحب says (9:11 PM):
yeah
الحب says (9:11 PM):
i hope i die easily though
الحب says (9:11 PM):
no pain
الحب says (9:11 PM):
just one wall will do
الحب says (9:12 PM):
that's it
dawny818 says (9:12 PM):
wat the hell deisy
الحب says (9:12 PM):
i just dont' want an arm cut off or something
الحب says (9:12 PM):
that would suck
dawny818 says (9:12 PM):
don't say that
الحب says (9:12 PM):
it's either all or nothing
dawny818 says (9:12 PM):
are you crazy!


LOL apparently SOMEBODY is scared of me dying goosh, it's death people, I take it as a sweet relief from this horrible life. More funny things from us talking but this one about reincarnation :

dawny818 says (9:13 PM):
my grandaunt told me that only if you do so many good deed you will go straight
الحب says (9:13 PM):
sooner or later you'll end up in this hell hole of earth again
dawny818 says (9:13 PM):
if not you still have to linger around until the time you suppose to go and live
الحب says (9:13 PM):
WHAT
الحب says (9:13 PM):
I DO GOOD DEEDS AND I HAVE TO COME BACK HERE EVEN MORE QUICKLY?!
الحب says (9:14 PM):
I'M NOT DOING COMMUNITY SERVICE ANYMORE!
الحب says (9:14 PM):
lol


GAH! lighten up about me dying! I'm sure you'll move on very very quickly, everybody does ;)


And here's Highlong Kay's take on the earthquake:

ha!  toodles!