SO yesterday was like gafidfhoaenfoide.

I'll skip half of my day simply because my log is quite public, the next half was hanging out with Sarah. She's one of my best friends and she just came back from a trip to Egypt, Dubai and NYC. She showed me ALL her pictures (over 1,000) and we had so much fun at the Bella Terra yesterday.

She told me all the stories of her trips and it was quite cool, I can't wait until I go to places with Giora.

So yesterday Sarah and I ate at an Italian place called Pomodoro's which I love. My favorite Italian place is in Anaheim though and it's called Demicelli's. I love that freaking place.

I have to go return some blockbuster movies today and mail the freakin postcard I meant to mail like five days ago.

My aunts even got theirs already.

Today I'm going to just scooter around with Dawn around the cities. I want to go to Anaheim and count the blonde tourists.

I just saw some clips of Scrubs in Spanish and it just didn't cut it for me. Maybe because I hate my family so much everything in Spanish sounds really vulgar to me.

Yesterday I stayed up really late talking to a friend from Guatemala and it was okay.

Today I ate some bad bread that smelled like cheese so I guess I have like 24 hours to live so I better start writing my will.

I leave my laptop to....

Dawn already has a laptop so no..she gets all my babysitting money so she can spend it in whatever she wants.

Giora will get my laptop, he has a normal comp but not a laptop.

My pink water bottle will be left to Magaly after a period of two years, which is the next time that I will talk to her because even though I live with her I have been ignoring her successfuly for about two weeks now, not one peep from my mouth to hers.

My private library to....crap, who the hell do I live my private library to? I mean I only have like 300 books but they're my favorite ones from childhood to now and I just love them so much I don't know if I could ever give them away...

Okay I guess I'll ....give them to...Magaly's adopted kids but they have to read them ALL! (yes I know she's only 13 but time flies people!)

Oh also if I don't succeed in sending the postcard to Tom in the next 24 hrs before dying please send it to him...whoever reads this lol...

Please return my baritone to my band class...even though it looks like crap apparently it's worth something )_(

My cell number, my sister can have it since she's so desperate for a phone.

andddd at last lets see....oh my summer assessments, I'll give them to Ruby since she's in serious need of the books and since she doesn't have a credit card and I have been banned from access to one she can't get the used books and refuses to pay full price.



So that is my will, the rest of the crap I leave to whoever calls it first...muahahaha

If I live after this bread accident then I guess everything is still mine, NO BOOKS FOR YOU RUBY!

OH ALSO! yesterday I took my senior pictures...
I'M A SENIOR!!! I AM A FREAKIN SENIOR GODDAMIT!

I can't believe it! I'm still in denial but I think I got a little out of it yesterday when I put the cap and gown and took the pictures, man that was INSANE!

CLASS OF '09!!!!

Then again I'm nothing special, everyone feels this way at this stage of their life...or maybe they just feel scared lol but I feel freakin happy as hell.

So I'm getting them in two weeks and I can't wait! Giora will have one of me in my gown as soon as I have them! He'll be super happy about it.

Okay I must get around to doing what I have to do right now....but I just feel like paralyzed from the waist down since I did so much yesterday and I am quite tired.

I haven't had the courage yet to go out to the post office to drop off the postcard but I'm trying really hard...I really don't know what to do about my extreme fear of walking outside.

Stupid men beeping when I walked in the past years must have been the problem. Sometimes they even went out of their way to stop and tell me stuff...we really need to get rid of them, quickly HURRY! shotgun I say is the best way

ok, now I'm really going unless I remember something else that I want to write about.

toodles!

oops I forgot, obligatory picture of Mr. Giora and me:

Last day together before he left to Israel :( It was happy yet sad. Oh how I miss my bunny...

So right now I was just watching tv randomly and I turned to the Spanish news. By Spanish I mean Spanish language not from Spain, since so many people mix that up and somehow call everyone that speaks Spanish Spanish...that's like calling everyone that speaks English English.

Anyway, the news were about an Ecuadorian girl that got severely beaten by a Spanish girl in Spain for being an immigrant. She kicked her and punched her until she was left unconscious and it was all videotaped by her friends.

For those people that don't know where Ecuador is, here's a map. Many people seem to just see everything south of the U.S. border as one, when in reality there's actually quite a fierce difference and quite a great deal of racism between an amount of Hispanic countries. So that's why try calling someone you just met that looks Hispanic Mexican only to find out that she's actually Nicaraguan and you might just find yourself cussed out...or at least with a very dirty look.


Ecuador, if somehow not obvious, is the western country in yellow.

Anyway, it's really sad to hear about these incidents, specially when you yourself are just another Hispanic person. I never really try to pay attention to 'race' since there's no real such thing as 'race', but I somehow always do because it somehow always implicates me. I've come a long way from hating myself from being colored though, but I'm still not so comfortable in my skin, eventually hopefully I will be though. I think that's another reason I didn't want to have kids, I don't want to bring more colored ppl to earth, I just don't think that it's a fair treatment compared to what others get, even though I also believe that how you feel about things affect them by a lot and what actually may not be a problem, someone can turn into a huge hurricane.

Other than that, I was watching the documentary of 'Black in America' on CNN and it was really really interesting. I learned a lot I can say that, and it was pretty amazing to find out several things that in the beginning even I had the common thought too. I guess I can't explain really what it was about and you kinda have to see it for yourself.

<3

Just for starts here's a video that I really like. It's so inspiring and full of passion:


I love it.

So my night. Crazy night. I went to sleep at 10pm since Giora was really tired and he had only slept 12 hours in two days so he told me he would call me to wake me. I woke up at 2am and he still hadn't called me so I went to see if he had left any messages and found out he had called my skype (not cell) at 1:58am....which was really weird because I woke up two minutes after that..BRAIN VIBES!!!!

So I started talking to his sister because she was there with him but I was upset because he didn't call me and I had to wake up by myself  because he apparently wanted to let me sleep and he had to leave soon anyway. So we talked for like an hour and then I went back to sleep and he told me he'd wake me up later again. He called me at 6am and we talked for like an hour.

Oh btw I survived the bread accident so I guess I'll live..the stuff is still mine.

Then he told me he would come home from being with his siblings around noon or so, so I'm waiting for him, I won't mind if he wants to go to sleep since he's waking up at 5am tomorrow and leaving for his base. His younger sister Caitlin, who's my age (17) is coming to Ohio to live with their dad so hopefully I'll meet her at least in college though I live in California she can come and visit me, but he's with them since she's leaving on August 7th.

So I had this HUGE stomachache and I think it was because of the 'cheese' bread that was supposed to kill me but I had to end up drinking some alka-seltzer and I forgot to put lemon and salt in it..bahh...

I smell like some fruity crap..I hate fruity smells.

Some type of mosquito bit me yesterday as I was sleeping in my underwear without covers..oh man if that was Guatemala today I would've ended up with Dengue.

But since I'm quite the Tropical Princess I think I would survive so all the pain for nothing, just a waste of time when I could be listening to good songs.

BTW Dengue Fever is HUGE in Guatemala. I think everyone I know has gotten it except me since my mom protected me with mosquito nets since the day I was born.

anyway look

"Everything that irritates us about others can lead us to an understanding of ourselves."
C.G. Jung

That quote is so true yet so hard to really act on what it's trying to say.


obligatory picture of Giora
Apparently he just took that yesterday. He's so tan now! he looks very cute.

xD! that's Giora's dog, he calls him tiny and he looks like a cow through skype but he is a wonderful dog from what I hear.

SOOO!!! Yesterday I got to talk to bunny quite a bit, it was pretty cool. I also read a bit of Wuthering Heights and found out that my new AP Eng teacher expects MUCH more than what my other one did so what I have been doing in annotating my book is worthless and I have to start over...

Other than that yesterday was SOOOO WEIRD! I cannot believe what happened! apparently some random guy that says he's family sent me a message to add him on AIM like a few months ago, I asked him if he was a certain cousin and well he said yes so I was like cool he got a new sn.

Anyway yesterday I msged him so he could see this one video and he starts calling me a bunch of things and acting like he's high, and I was like WHAT! THIS ISN'T MY COUSIN! WTH and then I got really worried and txted his older sister in Arizona and she called him like what the hell and the REAL cousin was like WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT I'M NOT HIGH ! lol I haven't even talked to Deisy in MONTHS! lol so he calls me to ask like what the hell is going on (he's 16) and I tell him this psycho person is acting like him and ahhh

anyway it turned out that it wasn't the cousin I thought it was thank goodness because I was about to have a heart attack cuz he called me a series of stupid crap and I thought he was high.

So anyway at the end it turns out we WERE related, but like 5th cousins and I have no clue who the hell he is.

AND to top it off HE MADE FUN OF MY VEGANISM! so that did it and I blocked him and I showed the video to my real cousin, whom was supposed to get it in the first place. BAH!

This lasted until like 2am...my boyfriend followed the whole thing lol since I totally and absolutely MUST share everything with him..it's just a rule I have.

Other than that I thought that he was going to be in the field all week and today he didn't have to!!! so we got to talk for like 30 min. and I finally squeezed his mom's home # out of him AND I called his little brother to ask him what he wanted for his bday so he told me he would tell me later since he couldn't just decide then..he looks EXACTLY like Giora did when he was his age..it's quite freaky lol here's a picture of them two being silly...


I LOVE THIS PICTURE! it's soo funny.

Anyway, I was sad I didn't get to talk to his mom and say hi since she was at work but I will some other day so that's good :)

My whole family is at church atm and like always they got mad I chose not to go. BUT I REFUSE!

Other than that....I have to go continue reading because I do NOT want to cram the last day of summer with three books whom I'm going to be intensively tested on.


I'm soooo happy right now...bahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh I love my boyfriend so much :)

Obligatory picture of Giora:


Doesn't he just look amazing?!

The picture above is of a sacrificial Mayan god which I was planning to get a tat on but then I decided that it was a little violent and later on I might want to be more peaceful so I'll stick for my three tats for now. I mean I barely have a place for the third one..where can it possibly be without it looking idiotic? I don't like tats on places that can't be covered up since my mom will smack me with a shovel when she sees them...so no feet, legs, arms..only back...that's it I guess..and my ass is too precious.

Other than that today I woke up relatively early compared to other days. I got a message from bunny on ICQ since he was going into the field :'( and then started getting ready for the day.

So yesterday my cousin from Huntington Beach payed us a visit and since I have my MUST see 60 Minutes show once a week on Sundays and there was the Buddha's Warriors documentary on CNN I decided to stay home while they went to the block.

So she starts telling me that a few days ago she was in her room and she was just passing through channels, and she doesn't know English since she just came from Guatemala a few months ago, so she saw this channel with a bunny on it ( YES LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL PLAYBOY, SHE HAD NO CLUE LOOOOOOOOOOOOL) and she clicked on it to see what it was and some writing appeared on the screen and an OK and she just clicked ok, and then again to another channel, but there was no pix or anything, she didn't even know what the OK was for...

So later she returns to the channels to see what the bunny was all about LOL and to her surprise there's this blonde girls with huge breasts sucking on some HUGE ( yes she described it as something she had never even imagined before huge) penis belonging to a very happy black male....

Of course while she was telling me this I was laughing so hard I thought I had soiled myself....LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL

So the worst part she says, that later she finds out that she has to pay $32 for the two channels and she doesn't even care about the money but the bad part is that IT WILL COME IN THE BILL!!

She lives with some nice old white lady that doesn't even speak Spanish LOL and of course when she sees playboy, she'll know it was my cousin since the two of them live alone HAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHA

I was laughing so hard I choked on my vegan apple smoked sausage that tasted amazing btw and I couldn't believe what she did LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL

Oh that stupid bunny lol fools everyone lol

Anyway I offered to tell the lady about the incident but she told me she was going to tell her today somehow with sign language lol and everything would hopefully be solved HAHAHAHAAHAHAAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Reminds me of the time when I was at Giora's uncle's house and I was searching through the channels and RIGHT when his uncle walks in I'm going through ALL THE PORN CHANNELS ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh sooo horrible, I hadn't even noticed! and Giora was like NO NO NO NO NO GET OUT LOL ahhh anyway, he ignored that we were pervs and we just went back to CNN..

Oh CNN...

funny funny shit.

Other than that I talked to Giora xD so I was all happy for the rest of the day

OHH OHH OH OH OH OH OH

Let me tell YOUUUUUUUUUUUU about the small penis contest...

Do NOT watch this link near parents, kids, at work, in Saudi Arabia, or anywhere where you might feel that they will decapitate you for viewing naked men with small penises...

Then again LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL IT LOOKS LIKE THEY HAVE NO PENIS!! I AM NOT EXAGGERATING, IT SERIOUSLY LOOKS LIKE A VAGINA....at least with like three or four of them LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL

It's a radio contest so they showed up to the radio but man... I laughed so hard I thought I was going to pee myself a second time.

Here's the link SMALL PENIS CONTEST

Laugh...laugh until you diiiiiiiiiiieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Another funny story,  has to do with this video...

SO last night I messaged this person whom I had gotten the SN from a long time from another person and I knew him from somewhere else and needed help in psychology so I sent him the video...after that we started talking about a bunch of other things and it turns out that he was the WRONG RICHARD, I DON'T EVEN KNOW THIS GUY, AND HE THOUGHT I WAS DEISY LOPEZ, THE WRONG DEISY SO LOL AND BOTH OUR NAMES ARE WRITTEN WITH AN E SO HE'S LIKE WHAT THE FREAKIN HELL CUZ THIS GIRL IS LIKE A STRAIGHT A STUDENT AND ALL INNOCENT AND CRAP AND HE'S LIKE DEISY..I NEVER KNEW U WERE LIKE THAT!!! LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL

Later we told the poor Deisy about what he thought she was like and I laughed sooo hard because I know her too and she would never..ever..do the things I told him about HAHAHAHA I'm still laughing.

Him thinking that I'm Deisy Lopez, the really good girl from his math class and me thinking he's the psychopath I met through my best friend..lol

Ok so today I went to eat falafel at an Arab restaurant and I also ate some Vietnamese fried rice...nice..

I also got a new locket since the one I got for a gift from Giora got damaged so I exchanged it today :)

Tomorrow I have the ultrasound, yes we'll be checking up on Giora's baby, NOOO it's for some menstruation stuff since I have horrible periods, AND I also have the questionnaire for a restaurant I hopefully will get hired in...I really hope so ...PLEASE JESUS BUDDHA AND ALL THE HINDU GODS, GET ME A FREAKIN JOB!

OKAY...sooo.....band camp, in ONE WEEK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHAT THE HELL, I HAD NO BREAK.

I haven't had a break from school since I was 14...it's either band, or Guatemala dealing with pesky family people and 3 year olds vomiting on you and bahhh


I SHALL BE FREE AT LAST! in about a year or so...HA! I'll laugh at YOU mother...

Here's a picture of Giora and me:

The sub explains it.

First of all I have to say that this is an angry post...or at least a bit angry if you're actually in anger management and are used to seeing worse. (it gets angry around the end btw, not at the beginning)

Okay so I have been more busy that I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT! but I love it, I am the type of person that is constantly doing something and if I have nothing to do I may just resort to suicide..I am NEVER bored..I do not utter those horrible three words even if I actually got to them which I haven't since I entered high school so...

Today I woke up around 10am. I ate a banana and had to drink FOUR glasses of water an hour before my ultrasound(I'M NOT PREGNANT PEOPLE, IT'S FOR SOME MENSTRUATION CRAP!). So my freakin grandmother mom that drives like at 50 in the freeway, (I am not exaggerating) got us lost and I was late for the appointment. SoOoOo those thirty minutes in the waiting room were LOOOOOOONG because I had to pee REALLY bad and I couldn't because they need the bladder to be filled with water...

So after the ultrasound I went straight to the bathroom and peed like a horse. I was pretty hungry by then so we drived to the mall and picked up my new locket, then to this viet restaurant to get some fried rice for my sister since I ate hers yesterday and I got some weird looking food that I like from there to go.

Then I went to the restaurant to fill the questionnaire and I PASSED! so I'm going for an interview tomorrow and I really don't know if I want it or not but if I get it of course I'll take it cuz I REALLY need the money.

Anyway, today I was watching a documentary about some boys around my age in the mara (Central American way to call a gang) 18, the rivals to MS 13 (Mara Salvatrucha for those who don't know) and it was really ...really..sad to see how (I hate to use this term because it really bugs me but)* 'my people' are going down down DOWN! I mean El Salvador is seriously dead now it has so many gangs, Guatemala is not SO bad but it's still pretty bad. It makes me so angry that yeah sure, don't 'kill' the stupid fetus but raise it to have a horrible life, join a mara and then end up in jail for the rest of its life. STUPID ANTI-ABORTION PEOPLE NEED TO DIE!

*I hate those words so bad but when it comes down to it I'm just another Guatemalan girl, another Central American teenager. No matter how much I try to be different from them I am still viewed as just a stupid Hispanic by everyone else, hell they even think I'm Mexican (I break necks if this happens).

What's worse is the position I'm in. I don't fit in here and I don't fit in there. If I went back to Guatemala right now, to live there, I'd probably get shot on purpose because I'm such an idiot to their eyes. What kind of freak doesn't eat even fish? I mean seriously, Jesus ate fish (-_-) and just that in general. Here I guess I do fit in somewhat but sometimes it really makes me mad when even my closest friends undermine the fact that I'm still Hispanic as 'unlatina' as I act and believe they can talk like we are stupid just because the majority doesn't try hard in school. It hurts really bad, I've had good cries over it it happens so often. I live in a place where there's a lot of Asian people, specially Vietnamese. It makes me really upset when they get mad when someone calls them Korean, but they feel so ready to call all Hispanics Mexicans. (my best friends always have been Viet btw..as ironic as that sounds)

 Anyway, I'm really tired of it, and sometimes I wish I could just find a Guatemalan person to be with and actually get along. Be able to eat black beans and tortillas with them without them saying something bad about it, like it looks like poop, or just be able to talk in Spanish without having to tell me that I speak weird or asking me what every other word means.

Don't they realize it's embarrassing to me? can't they tell I also wonder what's happening with the Central American youth? (I'm excluding Mexicans, Carribeans and South Americans because I'm just concentrating in people from Guatemala to Panama).

For those who don't know what "CENTRAL AMERICA" is, here's a map, so you don't confuse it with Mexico or Puerto Rico somehow *rolls eyes*:


The Central American countries are

Guatemala (this is where my whole entire family is from)
Belize
El Salvador
Honduras
Nicaragua
Costa Rica
Panama

Though Belize doesn't speak Spanish but English. Guatemalans still call Belize part of Guatemala since it was stolen by the British government, or at least this is what everyone has told me.

Anyway back to the Central Americans ruining the world part.

I wish to move to a perfect utopia, where everybody knows at least in what continent each country is, the fact that IT IS A COUNTRY and a few other facts...if only I could have this my #1 pet peeve would be gone.

My other pet peeve? well my other pet peeve is when people call women CHICKS. Yes...it is...I feel getting hot and red when this happens but it used to be worse. I try to get as far away from those people as possible.

There's many more but it's too late to think of them.

This is a rant post btw if you haven't noticed.

GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

I hate humanity.



DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WHEN IS THAT STUPID METEOR THAT'S GOING TO KNOCK US OUT OF ORBIT COMING?! STUPID GOD THAT DOESN'T EXIST, LETS BLAME IT!

So today I got my cosmogirl...

Yes I know what you're thinking, wth, cosmogirl?! well the thing is I subscribed to it a LONG time ago, like 3 years ago but I did the special 'pay 15 bucks have for like 5 years' thing and so I'm stuck with it until I leave for college.

I started disliking this magazine like a year and a half ago when it clearly only advertised things that tested on animals...

Then when it advertised a bunch of leather crap and I just stopped reading it and just recycled it ever since, but then my little sister Magaly started reading it so whatever.

So today I got it and I decided to read it. I read it and well it's worse than I remember, it's all about consumerism (duhhh I know, bare with my stupidity) and it just makes me feel bad for not being able to have anything that is advertised here, first of all I don't really want it because I don't NEED it, and sure it would feel nice if I knew I could buy those $300 shoes but, I wouldn't even if I had the money because I don't like showing off and why would you have them if you don't want other people to see them? It's basically to raise self-esteem I suppose.

Anyway, they showed different types of girls *I think it's a real liberal magazine though so that's good, pretty pro-choice and even mentioned planned parenthood in a good standing* and some of them were the straightedge girls, the anime ones, freegan ones and the gamers...

I do believe I will be a freegan in college though. If you ask WHY NOT NOW?! well my mom doesn't let me go out of the house without an adult so that's out of the question.

They also had this poetry section at the end and there was a poem that exclusively liked so here it goes

Teenage Fairy: For M

i didn't feel like i was enough
so i changed my nose
and i changed my skin
my bones
my blood
my home
my love
my clothes
my belly
my friends
my mind
until the man i wanted came to me

but after a while he left anyway and i was alone with this new self
we slept in our bed with the roses
she and i
and we sat by the pond waiting for water lilies
and we wrote poems
to each other
and we photographed ourselves in the mirror
and i was still lonely,
rummaging in the bed
in my sleep
seeking someone who
had never been there at all

Then this big-eyed,
long-legged,
fourteen-year-old fairy
wrote to me
and she said she didn't think she was beautiful
and i told her not to let her pain confuse her
trick her into thinking untruths
and i told her that her pain was
not her fault
but that she could use
it to make beauty
instead of to hurt herself

and that night i slept peacefully in my own arms



This poem rings something in me. I guess I have never been happy with who I am. I don't think anybody really is at first, maybe grows into it...or at least doubts themselves at least once in their life if they're really that confident.

I do wish that I would have had self-esteem more instilled into me though, maybe my life would have been easier, or at least I would have loved myself a little bit more..a little bit more than nothing ..lol

funny, why do I laugh? because now that I heard my younger sister talk about how big her hips were I felt like I couldn't say anything because I knew it wouldn't affect the way she thought about them. I have to say we come from a family if big hips, I have big hips too, in fact no matter how much I weighed my ass was always huge.

Anyway, when I heard her say it I remember how I sounded and how stupid I was, I guess I still am. At least I know and can see where I'm at now though but what really hurts is other girls that are doing it to themselves...sometimes just for attention, sometimes for reals.

What really hurts though is that most of the time they do it for someone else, usually boys. Boys don't really care about their looks when it comes down to comparing it to how girls care, girls care to the point of actually doing something about it or bringing themselves down...but I'm talking about really down. Not all, and also not all boys are so confident, but I'm talking about the majority. The majority of girls, of every age, are always trying to change something because they just don't like themselves, and the majority of guys just accept it, even if they dislike something about themselves. I guess it's how society raises us though, boys never have to change their appearance with make-up (neither do girls but its just society that 'wears make-up', even though many are choosing not to now a days) or do their nails, or wear different colors.

I mean they don't have to pick out a dress for a dance. Or do their hair. Or pick out their shoes.

They go with the same old same old tux and shoes...

So sad that I'm still in that circle of girls though, talking about how bad it is but I can't even get out of it. Hypocrite..yes.

<3

This is my favorite song at the moment... And it seems like I've fallen flat on my face with the Gypsy band Gogol Bordello <333





Pretty much how I've felt my whole life.

Anyway, I haven't posted in a long time because all I have to post is whiny things, not like the ones I've posted aren't whiny, but I mean even more, which is basically unbearable.

I just watched Turtles Can Fly which I HIGHLY recommend (Warning: if you're one of those people that doesn't like to see the horrible things that happen in this world because you want to live in a dream world where there's only happiness and everything is dandy this movie is not for you. Also if you really don't give a crap about anything but yourself or prefer to watch comedy to feel like this world is not so fucked up).




Also Wristcutters: A Love Story it's a very good story.


I only watch extremely good movies btw ;)

I just finished Wuthering Heights and just have The Natural by Malamud left... plus the report cards and my life ending.

I start band camp on Monday..at 8am, for me it's sleeping in since I've had zero period for the past four years...

Giora comes home tomorrow I think but I'm going to an Environmental Club meeting at Crystal's house so hopefully we plan everything successfully. I have to call all the treehuggers to meet.

crap..I have to call them.

ANYWAY, there is ZERO vegetarians in the club and of course no vegans. I'm the only one that really gives a crap, at least it looks like it.

I feel sometimes like I'm the only one in the world that gives a crap...I really need to meet people like me, just 10 months and 2 weeks until I'm out of this craphole called Orange County, CA.

I have to go to the doctor today since my ears have been hurtin since January but since my evil mother hates doctors all she does is criticize me for my horrible nutrition (LIES) and lack of excercise(TRUTH).

Sigh...

I love writing letters to people around the world. WHY? why have I always though? Ever since I remember having even Q. 5.00 (Q = quetzales) I always tried to send letters to my aunts in the United States for Christmas or their birthdays.

I also wrote to the Central American Nickelodeon and got my letter read on tv! I think that was the happiest day of my life.

I won a cow once as well. Yes, quite random but, my mom bought a lottery ticket in my name and I picked the numbers (this is when I was like 4 yo in Guatemala) and I WON A COW! I WAS SOOOO HAPPY! I remember we went to this remote like farm in the jungle and I picked my favorite cow and then we dropped it off at my grandpa's home in a faraway village.

Eventually he sold it cuz he moved -_- I was sooo sad. My cow! it was my freakin cow. I wonder who ended up eating it. Savages.

I stayed in my room for like maybe five hours reading and well I vigilated my cat for the whole time. She was around me THE WHOLE TIME. She's almost never there (My room has a huge glass wall that opens to the little garden in front my mom has) and she was like hiding behind the aloe vera and came to visit me like every two seconds and made me feel better about everything.

...

On Thursday I spent the whole day at my bff's house, Dawn. We watched two movies and the olympics together and then I came home around 11pm. I talked to Giora for like 15 min, the typical now, and then went to bed cuz I was so tired.

Yesterday I went to Crystal Nguyen's house at 7am for an Environmental Club meeting and I just stayed there for the WHOLE day. We walked to Home Depot and checked out a bunch of stuff, drank from Jamba Juice and got along sooo well. I mean, I've known her since tenth grade but I never knew such a wonderful friendship was so available..I wish I would have started talking more often to her beforehand, now this is my last year in the HS. She actually knew the capital of Ukraine! I was like oh my god..I have found someone similar to me! lol I swear, we have so much in common, we were also both raised in Catholic homes and we drink from the same glass the whole day :)

We watched Everything is Illuminated. This is my fourth time watching it and I think it's one of my top fav. movies.
Here's the trailer, because it's just that awesome :


gahh, I can watch it over and over again and never get tired of it. It's just so amazing, so I encourage you all to watch it. Crystal loved it, and so did Dawn.

Today...I need ONE more thing to finish my card report and then I just need to make the second one and finish The Natural and anotate Sir Gawain...most people haven't even started so according to everyone else I'm like so far ahead it's embarrassing for them lol.

I have babysitting tonight at 5pm so I'm pretty happy about that.

You know what's so funny? how little kids are so willing to ask you to wipe their ass. I mean in their mind it's totally normal lol cuz they're so used to it. I remember when I went to San Jose and Dawn's great aunt''s grandkid named Kaylynn took a poop and then just called me over to wipe her lol no shyness or anything and I was like man, I wish I was like that hahahaha...anyway, I'm an expert in wiping butts now...I have to change at least two diapers when I babysitt.

oh also, I laughed when I remembered that both girls told me to wipe them 'from front to back' lol because of course I have no idea how to wipe a girl's butt even though I'm a 17 year old girl lol

I remember I used to be very cool about asking ppl to wipe me too. I have this very vivid image when I was about 4 years old and I guess it was some type of party at my grandma's house in Guatemala and I called over some girl that worked for her (she was probably 13 or so lol) and told her to wipe me hahaha...cuz everyone else was busy and well she accidentally got her hand full of crap HAHAHAHA I remember her so well saying, AHHH I GOT CRAP ON MY FINGERS! in Spanish. Oh man..the memories.

Anyway..two more days until BAND CAMP!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

I don't want to ...I wish I could quit...but I can't....or else I don't get my 4 year band plaque....

Here's another song from the magical band Gogol Bordello...and the oh so sexy singer Hutz...


YEAH SEVEN SEAS!

Goddamit I am going to go to that damn concert in Anaheim on October 2 or I AM NEVER GOING TO FORGIVE MYSELF!

I really don't know how to start this blog so ...I'm just going to start..

I find it really hard to get attached to people. In fact, I try my hardest, and succeed, in not fully getting attached to anybody or loving them, except with my boyfriend. I wonder why I chose him, out of all people, to do this..specially when your significant other is the most likely to hurt you anyway, but I'm afraid that I will force myself subconsciously to have a wall in between 'just in case' at some point.

I've heard many times it's bad, that one shouldn't be scared of feeling something for others because of fear of getting hurt and sure, it's true but I just don't want to and I never will. In fact, even with my cat, I refuse to really like her because I know that when she dies I will cry really really hard.

Funny story, when my first two grandparents died and I actually had to go to the funerals since I was still living in Guatemala, I remember I cried because I didn't want others to think I was insensative, but in reality I really didn't feel anything. I never allowed myself to really care enough for them, figuring they already had enough grandkids to love them. When my grandma died a few months ago I REALLY didn't care, I remember I was at the grocery store when I received a call from my mom and my first thought was dammit now I'm going to have to bear my mom crying for the next few weeks.

The way I do this is by finding SOMETHING, in every person or..being that I can hold on to as a grudge. So far I have for every person that I know. I like it like this though, I've tried otherwise but it hurt so bad I couldn't take it being so vulnerable...I hate being vulnerable and I hate uncertainty..that's why I always have to find out the endings to all my movies and books but I always finish them anyway.

I think I'm finally letting go of what I 'expect' for my future though. I think that at this point I'm just going to try my hardest at everything I do but I don't expect anything anymore, I don't really want anything anymore..for myself that is. I guess it all goes into the fact that I don't like rejection or not being able to get something done. Of course I still want to do peacecorps and everything else that I don't like to talk about just in case it doesn't come true.

I'm only 17 years old though......only...amazing, time goes by so slow, it seems like every second has been hours my whole life, all I've wanted is to finally get over with this life, it's soooooo stupid. Having kids is stupid, everything that has to do with making people that never agreed to anything come to this earth and actually live here is stupid.

Why am I being so negative? it's funny because this is how I am all the time. I try to put something else so I don't think about it as much but hey, this is me....and someday I'll probably change and I most likely won't even get to do everything I wanted for myself like 99% of the people in this earth lol

toodles!

is in a few hours....in about 9 hours.

I saw Wristcutters for the third time. I plan to watch it again tomorrow, and I watched Everything is Illuminated for the fifth time...they're just my favorite movies. I wonder why though, since I really dislike watching movies more than once. This is the first time I actually choose to watch movies over.

This will probably be my shortest post ever.

I haven't written in my online diary in so long ...pretty much since I started this blog.

Registration will be soon...I always go like 15 min. before they close cuz then there's no lines and I really don't give a crap if I get a locker or not..I manage somehow anyway.

AP meetings start next Monday...I wonder how my new teachers will be. Apparently I'm a people person (Crystal says - I totally don't believe that) so I'll most likely get along with them. Last year all my teachers were amazing, except for my history one, he was just out of it..also, it was a normal class so eh, the people were really stupid and it got me depressed to think that ppl like that actually exist.

I'm scared of this year's physical science though. I flunked one semester of chemistry and now I have to take a full year of PHYSICAL SCIENCE! It's the worst punishment ever..I mean the ppl in PS are like the idiot freshmen and sophomore that can't pass biology...I took biology freshgirl year and chemistry soph. but I got a D on the second semester since someone stole the freakin final exam and the teacher counted it as a normal test. Fuckers.

Other than that I don't really care about getting a job anymore. I guess I'm quite disillusioned with going to Vietnam and Israel since there's so much going on and iono, if I get a job then fine and if not then fine as well.

I'm hungry but there's only ice cream in the fridge...uhh there's only so many berry cuties you can have.

I can't sleep. Everytime I go to bed I start crying..I really don't know exactly why but I don't like going to sleep because it's every night before I seriously fall unconscious. I hate this... just 10 months of living at home...just 10 months...

toodles!

So Band camp started yesterday but I was too tired to post. I came home at 1pm, talked to Giora for like two hours * 11pm to 1am his time* and then went to sleep for like five hours.

Holy crap, it was not like I imagined AT ALL. These past three years were the most horrible of my life in band and now that  I'm a senior THEY ROCK! OH MY GOD! NOBODY TELLS ME WHAT TO DO! I AM SOOOO HAPPY!

Goddamit I'm so happy I didn't quit band. I love band!

Today we left at 1pm again but we were in the field and I lost my stupid chart again to make the sets ...I'm number E2. My partner is E1 and there's a new freshgirl! Her name is Samantha, she's Laotian and her brother played the baritone as well. Her sister goes out with my other baritone player, Carlos, and it's pretty *_* <_< >_> when they kiss, since just two years ago he was barely up to my shoulders and now he's grown like a foot bigger than me.

Stupid puberty.

Anyway...I'm having a blast with band. Tomorrow I have an English meeting at 8am until like 12pm and then after I go to band for like an hour. YAY! I could just come home but I don't want to because I love band that much.

Then after that I usually come home and talk to Giora, why? do you ask, well for one thing he's on vacation from the IDF for a week so he stays a bit late to talk to me but like today he just went to sleep like barely half an hour after talking because he was so tired. ugh, but we talked for like an hour before I left anyway so whatever. I don't really care about talking that much to him anymore.

I actually am talking to the band people now! I actually get along with like EVERYONE except two people...and that's because I hold grudges..forever.

CRAP! I have to call the pharmacy for more bc. I'm supposed to get my period this week. Yay me...

ok..I'm on the phone with the lady..tararu...toodooo....crap, I called the wrong pharmacy..they have the same freakin name! just differs by one word...and they're neighbors she says! huh...ok so I'm waiting... Ok so she gave me the other pharmacy's number ok...stupid google.

OKAY! so I guess my bc is already there...I'll be picking it up tomorrow after band camp then!

I love my baritone :) have I ever posted a picture of my beloved euphonium?


yes..that is what I play...

So I AM SO HAPPY! with everything in school and all. I just have to start reading the Natural because I'm leaving it for the last thing and well when it catches up...I will be crying.

Like the banner hanging over the band's wall with Mr. Nowaks philosophy! lol

Failure is NOT an option, Surrender is NOT in our creed! GGHS band and orchestra! wooohooo

btw those stupid orchestra ppl are so annoying because they always beat us at winning competitions..bahh, they have all the nerds, so it's ok...what? I'm a nerdy geek? aww I know...

I love you all :)

I LOVE BAND!!!

oh oh here's some pictures of band from the last school year!

Okay so today I woke up around 7am and then got ready to go to the AP English meeting. I started getting cramps but I figured they weren't going to be bad enough for me to feel that uncomfortable so I went anyway.

I went and sat in front of Dawn, next to some people that I know since I was like 12 but haven't really ever talked to them because I don't really care much for them...or anybody for that matter.

The teacher was really nice and upbeat, she went through a bunch of stuff in the few hours I was there since I had to go home early with Dawn because I had really bad cramps.

I came home around like 11am I guess but I passed by the pharmacy to get my medicine and then went home and read.

Now that I know the teacher is nice I can't possibly not do my assignments. That's the deal with me, if I know the teacher expects something from me and I actually like her then goddamit I just cannot fail her! or myself for that matter....

So I'm finishing the Natural LIKE TOMORROW! and that's my final word! I may not go to band tomorrow since I don't feel strong enough to march for three hours...blah

I want to play my baritone though.

Other than that, today crap i forgot, today is my appt. with dawn to get our grad pictures..yay..

at 6pm

oh yes..life is just so great...

From now on I will be titling my posts NO TITLE with a # next to it, unless it's a super exciting name..at least to me.

So today I woke up around 10pm since I was babysitting yesterday and well it was til midnight. There was a small incident with a mosquito which I hope will never happen again and I brought over all my children's books to her house so they could pick out whatever and then donate the rest. Angie suggested me keeping some for my kids and I was like pbbfhfh;aodfouiahsdfo LOOOL ARE YOU SERIOUS?! yeah, I don't want to have biogolical kids ever and kids in general until I'm like after 60 so that will be a while.

So after I woke up today I encountered a fellow youtubian online on my windows live messenger and we started talking and talking and talking and well we talked for like THREE HOURS! eventually his wife *no, he's not old, he's only 21 but they're married* went on and then it got even MORE interesting (they were fighting and reminded me of me and Giora) and then like omg her and I completely bonded over bashing guys. It was like heaven talking to her, I can't wait to talk to her again. She gave me a couple of radical feminist authors to read from and man I went to the library today and just completely fed on radical feminism...

I should've chased the guy that grabbed my ass that one time! instead I cowardly cried at night. But I promised myself I would never do that again.

I spent so much time in the library that I lost track and I read the latest Ms. issue and it was pretty darn good.


OH OH OH I forgot to say, while I was in the feminist section reading peacefully these two little boys, I guess Korean one about 6 years old and the other about 3 came around and just started talking to me and kissing me and hugging me

YOU CAN IMAGINE MY EXPRESSION!! I WAS LIKE WHAT THE FUCK/how..nice..and..friendly of you...little boys..

so eventually between their little words because I could tell they were starting to learn English, (at that age I didn't even know English yet lol) and they were telling me about some anime they were watching on dvds which you can rent from the library and um they kept saying HOW PRETTY, YOU'RE SO PRETTY!! and kissing me and hugging me...

ok so eventually they left...and they come back! and more kissing and hugging and I mean since I'm used to dealing with kids their age due to babysitting I was like okaayzz, I figured they didn't have a mom because I don't know any other type of children that are so nice and filled with love unless they're missing a parent.

So they leave and then they come back with their dad, ok so IT TURNS OUT!!!  THAT THEY THOUGHT I WAS SO PRETTY THEY HAD TO SHOW ME TO THEIR DAD! I was so embarrassed/confused because I don't exactly consider myself pretty..specially today, I just went for one freakin book to the library

Eventually they said bye and left with a bunch of noise and rattle and the librarians kept saying SHHH but man, what an awkward experience!


.....today was such a weird day....SUCH A WEIRD DAY I TELL YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!

holy crap, I have to finish my summer asses....LIKE NOW! I HAVE ONE WEEK UNTIL SCHOOL STARTS, GODDAMIT, MY LIFE WILL BEGIN IN LIKE A FREAKIN WEEK!!!


I cannot wait. I love school because it fills me with work and takes away my deeper and more horrible problems by giving me horrible problems that aren't soo deep, but that stress me out in a different less severe way making me forget everything in life that really matters therefore making me a different kind of happy person :)



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TOODLES!

Okay so it's Sunday afternoon and I'm babysitting at the neighbor's. The girls keep fighting for some reason, more than usual so idk why really.

I got to talk to Giora today!!!! I was really happy, and he promised tomorrow will be my day to talk so I'm really happy about that xD

He goes back on Tuesday morning though :( that's Monday night for me.

Today I will talk to him 'til really late and tomorrow I have registration and then the AP Economics meeting so that should be fun. By that time he'll be asleep so it'll be fine.

So today the girls were playing and well they gave me this :


Hmmm I thought, cow for dinner...it is so weird that for them it's totally okay to eat animals, well of course they've been taught that their whole lives and I was the same way up until I was 10 years old and made the connection that it's just dead flesh... and horrible suffering.


Cow for dinner...

So anyway! Giora and I's one year anniversary will be in EXACTLY two months! It's so exciting! today is our 10 month anniversary :)

We met on October 31st on Knotts Scary Farm, it was an amazing day for me.

Here's a picture of us on our first date


Okay so yes we're kissing because I totally like cornered him on the booth lol yes..I wanted that kiss and I got it!

He probably thought like OH MY GOD! RAPIST! lol..just a little haha

Right now the girls and I are going to watch Aladdin so I'm excited, haven't watched it in YEARS! maybe since I was their age.

You know what I like? that even through the worst fight you know you'll be fine with your boyfriend/girlfriend and it's so nice to know it.

I love you Giora :)

Edit:

So after spending the whole day with the girls, before at the most was four hours, I have realized how hard being a parent is, not that I didn't have an idea beforehand but...

I only had an idea but, I am so glad..that I am not having children for a while ( I'm only 17 ), because I know for sure that I am SERIOUSLY, not ready..then again duhh I'm a freakin teenager, I shouldn't be ready..unless I lived like three centuries ago, then I'd have like five kids O_o.

At one point I was really tired and was just seriously falling asleep next to them on the big bed while watching Aladdin and they were thirsty...but this happens like every other second and I have to do EVERYTHING for them because they can't pour themselves juice or put crap on the microwave or put something on tv, so they completely depend on me... I cannot imagine how parents really do it, they have NO LIFE! then again, they put themselves up to this so it's their own passtime lol

I WON'T EVEN MENTION how it feels when you have to watch their FAVORITE movie over and over and over and over again. I mean, this is me babysitting them and I have seriously watched High School Musical 1 & 2 more times than I remember, for sure it's been more than 20 though since I watch it every time I babysit and ever since I started so it's been REALLY over 20 times. That's just when I babysitt, imagine being the parents? LOL you have the WHOLE movie memorized, you can even play out all the parts just by yourself I bet.

OH man...to imagine that's what MY parents had to do someday, for me it was reading the Little Red Riding Hood to me every night, sometimes up to three times a night and I LOVED IT! I also liked the Ugly Duckling...but in movies, I had this movie called like the Snow Queen in English, I didn't understand ONE WORD, but that's ALL I watched...I watched it every day, all the time, and my mom and aunt just had to watch it with me lol I also remember taking up all the tv time and my parents watching just what I, ME, wanted to watch, just like my baby neighbors do now, so I completely do it without complaining, (what I'm writing about is just a realization and complete understanding lol but I love it! becuase I only get it a few hours a week :) lol )

Now more than ever do I look weirdly at teen pregnant girls for choosing to keep their kids, I think that a couple of hours with toddlers a week while babysitting is all the children I need in my life for a long, long time.

I do love my boyfriend though :) I could spend all the time with him and never get tired.

and also I LOVE my neighbors, and I love babysitting them, and I'm really happy I have this opportunity now to get my experience in dealing with children :P

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Some stuff that I found about it. I just put it becuase I remembered how being a little girl in Guatemala I felt like OMG Guatemala is like oh so famous and super important! in fact EVERYBODY is Guatemalan! ...then I came to the United States and to my surprise these idiots think it's in South America. lol..I was born in Orange County, CA. So I'm 'American' which in reality I'm 'from the U.S.' I would be American even if I was born in the middle of the Atacama.

I guess my reason for putting this crap up is because even though I believe being nationalistic and all filled with pride from where you're from is stupid, I'm still Guatemalan and well, to everybody else, no matter how much a citizen of this world I want to be, I still have my Guatemalan passport...


I remember I used to have these little balls all over my room when I was younger...hell I never even knew what they were for but I still had them lol....


Some Guatemalan Coins...Giora has the gold one xD

These are probably better off in the trash can though, they're practically completely worthless...Crazy how the U.S. $ and the Guatemalan Quetzal where equal until 1987...what happened? Well now all I know is that my fellow Chapines are eating dirt...just like the rest of the third world. Except for that 2% that owns all the land of course.

(Goddamit I tripped on something and now my ankle is getting really swollen and hurting horribly)

I was here with my family.. A 16 HOUR DRIVE WITH YOUR EXTENDED FAMILY IS THE WORST PUNISHMENT YOU COULD EVER GET FOR YOUR SINS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! GODDAM YOU JESUS CHRIST!

Now! time for the Guatemalan dishes! most of them are meaty but also a lot are vegan because most ppl are poor and cannot afford animal flesh. Apart from this, that's why the poorest are always the strongest and healthiest. AND keep in mind these are NATIVE AMERICAN dishes, all of the ladino Guatemalan, as in my idiot family, copied them (but we're still part Mayan or else we would be completely Caucasian..which you can tell by the pix I am completely not):

Some rules that you should know about Guatemalan food -

IT WILL NEVER, EVER, EEEVVVEEERRRR BE SPICY! THAT IS STRICTLY FORBIDDEN AND NO TRUE GUATEMALAN WILL EVER, EVER EVER SPICE THEIR FOOD!

..I think that may just be the one and only most important rule in the book...anyway! here we go


Notice that some person might say, WHAT, ENCHILADAS IS MEXICAN FOOD, well yes ma'am, but for Mexicans Enchiladas are actually quite spicy and look COMPLETELY DIFFERENT. In fact here's a picture of the MEXICAN ENCHILADA, so you don't get confused.



ok, now back to the real food, which is Guatemalan food of course ahem, here's some Pepian...

Here we go with some Jocon: ( My mom made the vegan version of it for me but then she said that no matter what you put it in it's like trash without the beef -_-, she's delirious)


Here's the pot of it :)


A series of Guatemalan foods:


AND THIS TUN TUN TUN...IS THE GUATEMALAN BREAKFAST

Rules about the breakfast:

1.Of course it can't be spicy
2.IT WILL HAVE, BY ALL MEANS, BLACK BEANS. IF YOUR BREAKFAST DOES NOT HAVE BLACK (not pinto, white, red or purple) BEANS, YOU ARE NOT, NOOOOT, GUATEMALAN!
3. Also, it will contain fried plantain, a good hearty guatemalan will fry that plantain 'til the day they die of a heart attack.

AND OH MY HOLY FREAKIN CHUCHITO!

THE CHUCHITO! is like, the mother of all trip foods. If you're going on the bus to Guatemala City the girls selling you Quezadilla (which is a type of bread made with rice, NOT A FREAKIN TORTILLA WITH CHEESE, stupid Mexicans ;) ) will always have some hearty chuchitos and tamalitos de chipilin. *Chipilin is like spinach...except...quite wild and we eat it in all ways, oh man that chipilin..I'M GOING BACK TO GUATEMALA RIGHT NOW!)


Atol de platano is a drink made from plantain, we are banana people, we will do that banana any way we please sir.

These are the infamous tamalitos de chipilin I mentioned beforehand:

I'm bribing my mom to make these tomorrow..those damn bastards.

and here comes

LAST BUT NOT LEAST..EVER!

THE GUATEMALAN TAMAL! not tamale people, that's for Mexicans.



This is it, closed and uncooked


The thing in the back of it you see is the banana plant, we use it very wisely and cook the delicious masa in it, then inside we have pork *which my mom puts vegan chicken inside for me* and a delicious kind of little marinade that I have no clue what is made of but it's totally vegan and damn delicious.

Giora liked it :) he tried it for the holidays when my mom made them.


BTW, the unholy jalapeno next to it was a stupid thing some person put there to jeopardize the patrimony of Guatemala's main dish. It will never be eaten by a true Chapin.



Edit: I TOTALLY forgot to put that in the first picture, the map of Guatemala includes Belize, though atm it's its own country, it was part of Guatemala forever and then the damn British came and took it away, so Guatemalan ppl will usually just act as if Belize is part of Guatemala and even add it to the map :P And I think the gov. is still trying to fight over it.

Ok, so today was REGISTRATION DAY for seniors...

I carelessly joked around with Giora that I may just be late and have to sign up with the freshmen..

well curse me goddamit because that's EXACTLY what happened -_-

Dawn picked me up so we could do the trick of being late and then just going through the line quickly because every stupid person came early lol .. it all went well for the first three years

SO TODAY WE GET THERE! AND THE LINE IS LIKE AT LEAST 200 PEOPLE! so we're like..okay cool..we'll go get boba and then come back.

Well, we came back and they told us to come back at 1pm because they were taking a break. So we went to the AP Econ meeting and well Mr. Starnes seems like quite the cool person, he's married to my AP English teacher so I'll be taught by a married couple. Peter told me they're both liberal and kinda like me so I can't wait.

I actually pay attention really really carefully in class so today I kept reciting everything that I learned LOL because what he taught was SO INTERESTING! but then after at 2pm we went back to the registration and well we had to wait in line for a few min, since we got a ticket AND

I saw Maneja and we talked for a bit and then she left for her work, she works at like a freakin Halal meat place lol but she's the person that does the paperwork and all of that.

Then finally FINALLY we were walking through, and I payed my senior fee and my yearbook *yay, off my back* and then I have to pay for gradnight! and I can't wait! I can't believe I'm graduating in nine months.

A BABY LATER! lol

I'm sleepy...

anyway, I got my books and my schedule and I guess my counselor forgot to put my AP Environmental Science in because I get out at lunch! ah, I'm so excited.

But, I have to go get it because I have to look as if I have 'challenging' classes to my future applying colleges.

Other than that..WE SAW HIGHLONG! and he actually um bought a planner! lol cuz he's going to college and he says they don't give him free planners lol

Then I met his sister, which didn't really look like him but eh lol and then we said bye while he drove his bike away.

Gah, my ID picture looks like I'm trying to dress like a boy, I had my hair up so it looks like I cut my hair really short hahaha like a boy and man, quite funny. I like it.

Senior, class of '09!

I'll be seeing this class in 2019...fucken hell man, that doesn't sound very coherent. lol

Hopefully 2012 comes AFTER I actually get to have fun :P

Damn Mayans, and to think they're my freakin ancestors...bastards. (why the hell couldn't they give me some of their magical super powers and intelligence?!!!!  Instead I got asthma, diabetes and migraines in my genes -_-)


Ok so Giora is going tonight back to his base :( I'M REALLY SAD! LIKE REALLY SUPER DUPER SAD! But I did get to talk to him for hours today so I was really happy about that, and even his mom was upset because he spent time with me instead of her lol IT'S MY TIME! TAKE HIS GRANDMA'S TIME!

Anyway...He's going to be available on the weekend (YAY!) and he's going to have another week off in a month! SO I really can't wait until I have another like bunch of hours of talking to him. This week I actually got a pretty big share though...like an hour or two each day plus today's hours.

Here's some pictures of him!!! I haven't put some in a while but here it is



My bunny totally went model status there :P he's always a model though so it's ok xD

He went to like this exhibit that had things from a bunch of places and guess what?! they had Guatemala and El Salvador!


That's Pnina, his sister. (Don't they look so much alike?!)


That's Giora and Pnina, she's vegan too!!

Doesn't he look so cute??!


Giora with his little brother Guy...they're so cute together! I love this picture.


Toodles!

So today Dawn, Valerie, Magaly and I went bowling at Westminster Lanes...IT WAS SOO MUCH FUN! We played like three games, so about three hours, then two rounds of air hockey. We ate some fries and laughed and laughed and laughed...

I wish we could do this every week!

It's ok, we're going on a sailing trip in a month and then on a kayaking trip the other so we're set. :P

I loved today! It was the best!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Here are some pixos...


That's me diligently looking after my oh so very light ball..I HAVE NOODLE ARMS OK!? DON'T LAUGH!